So, apparently for me, trying to write more means not writing at all. You could call it writer's block, or feeling like anyone who reads this doesn't really care, but then again, if you're here, you at least give a half a shit. I had a discussion about having all this information flowing through my head and then, when trying to write something, the inability to get anything out occurs. I know it comes from being "trained" as a journalist, wherein everything you write will either be seen and/or read by someone. It's a kind of self-editing that makes a single paragraph take an hour to write. With the instantaneous-ness of writing on a computer, ideas can be deleted in a single keystroke by a feeling of doubt or fear or anxiety or even carelessness. One way to counteract this is physically writing in a notebook, you know, with paper and a pen/pencil (seriously, do they still make those?). So that's what I've started doing. So, I've come here to write that I've been writing. So, writing more means not writing but really writing more?
UPDATE:
I've moved up in my current position at the job; more hours, more responsibility and more work. Still, it's at a point where I'm on top of a pile shit. I may be on top of that pile of shit, though I'm still just really on a pile of shit, but I'm at least happier.
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